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The Cocooning
October 21, 2005 | |
I’m sorry I didn’t make it to the party to say the proper good bye.
I’ll be honest, I hate them.
I felt like our last supper was a much better send off. Such a bittersweet pleasure to raise my glass in your honor and wish you well on your solo journey. I said I was excited for you, and still am. Regardless of your apprehension at moving on–I on the other side, am envious. Maybe even a bit jealous. You have so much to explore in the adventure ahead of you–the world is your oyster…
But in the interim my dear, chin up. This uneasiness is a given. As a former ‘worldgypsy’ myself, know this comes from the heart…
You are in the thick of that foggy grey period–That adjustment phase when your former life clouds the brighter future. I have been here so many times even the unfamiliarity is familiar. The aversion to your new surroundings, the nostalgia for where you just left, the natural tendency to question your intuition–it’s just part of the process–The fog will clear along with your mindset and the future will be bright-
This is just the cocooning before the emergent butterfly.
Obviously you are missing him, probably more than ever right now,
but this will also will fade. Quicker when you decide that you are ready to move on and no longer consider returning to NYC an option. It doesn’t need to be right now. Miami has this kind way of soothing you–with the sunshine and the ocean and the ease of just being. (OK-maybe a little less in hurricane season but this too shall pass!) Remember, you came there for a reason. Give yourself time to be reminded why. Listen to your intuition, even if it may be only whispering right now.
I know this is a sad time for you right now but it will indeed, fade.
Soon you will be on top of your world again–as you have always been the queen of your castle (and you know this). You are too strong a woman to hold onto something that isn’t strong enough to hold you back.
Until then, navigate through the threshold on your own terms. EMBRACE that independent spirit. It’s the very essence of what makes you so incredibly–
you.
And back here, at your old home, rest assured whenever I see a bottle of Lillet,
I will smile to myself thinking of you.
And wonder what amazing adventure you are in the thick of–as it is in your nature to be completely engrossed in your passions. You were never one to take life lightly. Never one to get too comfortable in the routine. How could you NOT seek out greener pastures? There is too much of the world you haven’t licked…
But you will.
I will miss you, fellow gypsygirl.
But go alone now now and discover your pearl,
Your oyster is waiting.
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